Its Not Hard to Come Down
When we never even left the ground.
The way the brain works is extremely fasinating. It’s got a specific mechanism and neuron pathway for every situation and circumstance you’ll ever be in. When you’re suddenly put in a vulnerable situation, a neurotransmitter called adrenaline or epinephrine is set off, the Fright-Fight-Flight response. And this will cause a series of reactions in your body which makes your muscles do whatever it takes to survive.
That’s whats happening inside my body right now. My adrenaline is racing. It’s trying so hard to catch me as I fall. Willing to grab on to anything to save me. Even the smallest little twig, as I fall down from the mountain that is him.
But to no avail. Theres nothing to hold on to. I’m a pony chasing a carrot on a stick, I’ll never reach it. I’m driving on a never ending road with no final destination in mind. There’s no future here. No concrete plans.
I should be finding hope, upon losing you. A blank canvas to fill with new stories and pictures. I can’t keep holding on to the few we made. There aren’t enough physical memories to keep this going. No valid evidence to prove we work out.
Why are we so set on staying with him or fighting for him? Why do we so obsessed with the fact that we need to make it work. Unless you’ve got kids (which to be honest I can’t really relate to), why do you pressure yourself so much to stick around? We beat ourselves up, put ourselves second and put all out effort and energy into making a relationship work instead of just accepting the fact that it doesn’t.
Its shouldn’t be hard to forget something that was never too great. Fresh relationships shouldn’t be hard to let go of. The begininng should be easy. The honeymoon period should last more than a week.
You have no concrete or permanent commitment to make it work. So this is me telling you to stop fighting for something that isn’t worth it.
